~ChOcoLate's WoRLd~

今年最后一个旅行

2011-10-25T16:23:00.001+08:00

完成了今年的最后一个旅行，感觉好很多
虽然今年年头很多不愉快的事情发生：
- 做了对自己一生难忘的事情
- 外公离开人世
- 揭开了身边人对我说的谎言
但，我很幸运。
因为从小就有很好的宗教信仰，所以我都很努力的去面对所发生的事情
跌倒了就在爬起来
要更认真的去面对事实
我还是我，我还是要继续寻找幸福~ 啦啦！

最后一个旅行是台湾
台湾是一个好去处
好好玩，好好逛，好好吃，好好走。。。
人人都好热情哦！
你不买他们的东西真的好像对不起他们，因为他们真的太会说话了
我想再过两年再去多一次，但不是台北了，去看一看台南或台中！

日月潭

九份的夜景

热情阿姨的孩子

我和老弟

赞！

各有各色

~When little Izack become Big Izack~

2011-09-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

两年不见的小孩已经长大了
他不怎么记得我了
体格变大，思想也成长了，语言也进步了
说了一流澳洲音的英语，但中文却比以前差
哈哈~想起他尝试把英语翻译成中文的样子，真是可爱！
想不到，一把年纪的我，竟然拒绝不了他的邀请，和他玩起hide and seek~
我那么大只，要找个位置藏还真难。但是他就是找不到我~ lalalalala
玩了两次，累了，升白旗了，
他认真的对我说:"if you don't want to play, you have to give me 1000 bucks."
"I don't have 1000 bucks, can I give you my kiss?"
他摇摇头，就跑去找另一个小朋友陪他玩。
真是的，我的吻就是不值一千块~

A Predict~

2011-09-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

Best Friend A: J always fall in love with his buddy la

Me: Why Best Friend B never introduce his buddy for me to fall in love?

Best Friend A: Yee Shuan, I got a feel..your future boyfriend is a foreigner

Best Friend B: Yes, I got the same feel...

Hahahaha

Let's wait and see whether what my best friend predict/feel will become a fact or not :)

~Eating big donuts a Japan~

分手的季节

2011-08-11T16:06:00.000+08:00

一直都听到朋友们分手的消息

现在是分手的季节吗？

希望时间能让治疗你们的伤口

开开心心的再寻找下一个幸福

很想说

2011-06-15T16:43:00.000+08:00

很多事情很想说
但，一想到心却隐隐作痛。。。。。。
痛到想说的力气都没有

谢谢你让我解脱
既然让我解脱了就不要回头
因为我不想再这样下去了

狂吃症

2011-03-01T12:53:00.000+08:00

我怀疑自己有狂吃症！
明明早上8点时才吃了早餐，怎么现在就饿了~
啊！救救我吧！

昨晚的宵夜才和小妹吞了一盘的炒果条已经是破坏我减肥计划的阻碍了。
我真的真的要下定决心，暂时离开美食。。。。

。。。。。。。
很难。。。拒绝是吗？

~哈哈~

2011-01-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

今天的心很忐忑不定。
就像快有一粒炸弹要爆发
这一种不安稳的心是什么造成的呢？
我根本不能专注于我的工作
在新的一年不是应该有一个好的开始吗？
怎么我就觉得我必须承受一些很重大的压力以及责任
我。。。。。。
真的很难受
我不懂你今天想要和我坦白的事情到底是什么
但是我一直在告诉自己要冷静的接受
要冷静的听
要尽力的控制自己的情绪
我希望结果不是我想象的坏结果

2010-11-10T15:39:00.000+08:00

一个巴掌响不起

还是停止无聊的讯息

免得令事情进入不可救药的地步

**虽然有人疼爱是一件幸福的事，但还是理智一点比较好**

2010-08-03T10:20:00.000+08:00

六月到目前为此，身边发生了太多的事情
来不及整理自己的思绪

每个人突然带起面具
而面具后的真相令我窒息

我不喜欢大家猜测彼此的心

为什么就不能和平相处呢？

我伤心，我失望，我真的觉得很无助

我哭了，然后我告诉自己相信自己应该相信的

很多时候，发现自己并不是想象中的坚强

很需要一些力量来把自己推往好的方向去想

虽然说科技拉近了彼此的距离

但为什么每次需要朋友时，都觉得了解自己的朋友都离我好远

无奈~

再过几天，我就可以放假了

要把自己放在一个让自己轻松的地方

2010-05-13T10:01:00.000+08:00

是真的那么忙吗？
说要回电给我怎么都没做到
是我笨相信你
还是这就是你对人的态度?
又或许这只是你对我的态度

小莹说
这种人不不要浪费时间对他有什么期待

只要降低一点期待就不会再失望
对你这种人应该要抱着如此的态度吧

2010-05-07T10:03:00.000+08:00

闭着眼，你还是出现在我黑暗的世界
我是中了思念诅咒吗？
睁着眼，你还是在。。。。。。
我始终搞不清楚是什么原因让我对你的思念越来越深

睁了又闭，闭了又睁
仿佛这个动作对我是个折磨

原来想念是会呼吸的痛
痛在你想他，但他并不想你
你很想关心他，却怕他觉得你很烦人
你要听他的声音，但键盘上的“拨”却一直没有勇气按下去
你要见他，他没有时间应酬你
最痛的是。。。。。。
你决定要忘记他，不再想他，不再关心他，可是你却做不到

2010-04-28T15:02:00.000+08:00

Am I with a right partner? - Nice Article During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?" The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind replied the author. Here's the answer.
Every relationship has a cycle...In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls, want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything.

That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU. Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?"
And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.

This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): The key to
succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy.
And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery.
There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner). Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know and apply these laws, the results are predictable. Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO!!

2010-04-28T14:53:00.000+08:00

他和她不熟，虽然见过很多次面，
但都是以轻轻的微笑打个招呼,有时甚至连微笑都没
因为彼此都应该没想过会成为朋友

她的电脑常常都有问题
有一次当他又上来他的办公司修理网络时，她的电脑网络正好有问题
就这样他们开始了第一次的交谈

过后的见面他们就开始慢慢认识彼此
交换了面书与电话
开始在面书与短讯的暧昧

因为彼此不是真的很懂彼此
所以大家也都只有字体上的暧昧
从没约会过

字体上的暧昧很困挠
它不能代表什么
因为不能融入真正的感情在字体里

女人是很敏感的动物
对字体也敏感
对字体也会产生感情

渐渐的他开始无意中出现在她脑海
她知道他都只是和她玩玩
但是就是控制不了不去想念他

她找了机会告诉他，她会想念他，对他有不错的感觉
（总觉得事情好像发生得太快）
但他却以很轻松的方式告诉她, ‘只要你想念我随时都可以call或sms我’

我知道这句话对她并不好受
因为那男人得语气显示有些不重视她的存在
我说如果哪男人都不喜欢你，那你应慢慢学会放弃他
她说如果没努力过就放弃那是不是有些不值得呢？
‘那如果努力了都没结果呢？’
‘虽然受伤，但至少曾经努力过，也不会感到后悔吧’
‘。。。。。。‘

真心的期望她所有努力都可以得到回报

2010-04-22T17:32:00.001+08:00

犯贱！
或许你会很喜欢到办公司但不用工作
但我绝对不是以上的支持者
今天，不对，这几天每次到公司都无所事事
或许你会很享受有粮出但不用做工
但我真的觉得会少许的对不起自己，对不起公司

‘你们不是已经商量了要帮忙楼下的同事做些文件吗？还没实行吗？’
‘已经开始实行了。只是他们都没寄给我们叫我们帮忙’
‘哪。。。。。。’
‘如果他们需要我们帮忙，就会寄给我们，那我们就帮咯’
‘那他们还没需要到我们吗?'
摇摇头
'明白了’

不要多事，做好自己的本份
就让时间慢慢一滴一滴的溜走吧~

2010-04-10T10:17:00.002+08:00

在公司但没工作

一时兴起作了个心理测验

出来的结果如下

被动等待爱情。

你期望擁有完美的愛情，對浪漫的愛情也曾產生過無數的幻想，但睜開眼睛時忽然發現現實是如此不堪。身邊的異性朋友明顯多與於同性朋友，由於太過小心，很少與異性接觸。你羞於表達對愛的渴望，不管自己有多麼喜歡對方，也很難讓你開口向對方說出自己的想法，面對無奈的感情世界，常常抱著一切隨緣的想法，等待屬於你真正的愛情。

2010-04-08T15:34:00.003+08:00

突然厌倦了自己不长不短又卷卷的头发
总觉得自己的头发长得很快
所以昨晚就对自己说：“如果放工后没塞车我就去剪头发。”
的确只用25分钟的时间就到saloon了

Before

Dang! Dang! Dang!

After

是不是年轻了很多呢？

2010-03-31T10:30:00.000+08:00

已经有2夜都睡不好了
是因为床边少了小妹
还是我的脑袋有事情在烦着我
前前一天的血腥恶梦都还没从我记忆里消除
前晚又让我在梦里忙着忙那
脸上的黑眼圈慢慢在扩大它的范围

昨天一早就起床，公司也在昨天搬移到离我家的另一边
忙了一整天，回到家看电视机也能睡着
我想人太累了，不会再睡前想太多，所以昨晚并没有噩梦或美梦缠身
终于我可以很精神的上班

不知不觉小妹已经离开家5天了
小妹很独立
她很友善
所以我相信她可以在哪儿生存的很好
听她说放假回来时，在哪儿认识的一位女生朋友可以载她回来
很快吧！很快就巴结到人载她回来
少了她的家的确静了很多
特别是每天早上和中午都和她在家的妈妈
妈说：“man man不在真的很静。你在做工，大姐做晚班回家后要睡觉休息。不是说man man很吵，可是就特别静。”
我明白妈的意思
以前有人在家会多一个人的呼吸声，脚步声，说话声
现在却只有自己的声音

妹，原来最不习惯没有你的人，竟然是妈

2010-03-22T10:32:00.007+08:00

DAYBREAKERS

一开始就觉得这部电影还蛮特别的它讲述当世界的人面临绝种，只剩下吸血鬼
哪吸血鬼要如何制造食物以僵尸的面容继续生存
当然,里头也有活人他们不愿成为僵尸所以选择逃离僵尸,避免成为食物
有些却因为家人用错方式来爱他们,而在他们不情愿的情况下,成为僵尸

人性的丑恶,僵尸的善良
全都可以在这部电影感受到

唯一觉得让我心情不愉快的
是那些断头断手的画面
脑袋里不停重播“马来西亚的制度几时开始那么开放“

记得别吃太饱去观赏！

2010-03-18T15:29:00.005+08:00

心血来潮的上了friendster, 发现它原来已经换了新画面
自从在fb里很活跃后，我想，我真的很久都没去游览friendster了
试了三次才想起密码是什么
最后一个新讯息是2009年11月
最后一个comment是2009年6月
最后一次upload照片是2009年1月
有3页的新朋友等我的回复 - 没兴趣所以都删除了

最感兴趣的就是读回在college以及Uni期间，朋友所写下祝福语以及意见
以前谈心事的朋友，现在一点消息都没有

以前一起玩的朋友，现在却离我有350公里
以前喝茶的朋友，现在应该在家陪宝宝喝奶吧

人与人的关系往往就会被时间拉远
越拉越远时，再相见，以前的感觉也很难再找回
只祈求有缘遇见时，我们都不会成为熟悉的陌生人

2010-03-17T10:06:00.002+08:00

~当想通一件事，原来心情可以那么放松~

谢谢你让我不再那么执著

2010-03-10T12:06:00.000+08:00

我关上了门最后一次听你说我们
熟悉变陌生把我往记忆里扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神
才能让失去你变的更完整
窗外的街灯还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的叹息成真了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛
才发现失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来你只是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只能让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯唤开了城市中的心门
我的等待成真了整夜的苦闷
我努力在你的回忆里狂奔
才了解失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只能让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱
就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少我都想要
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好
让回忆继续反复炫耀
原来失去对彼此都不好

没冷气的办公室

2010-03-05T16:19:00.003+08:00

真的很热！
汗不受控制的一直从毛细孔挣扎着。
我想大家已经忍受不住这样的情况，都会拿起桌上的纸张或文件，用力的拨, 以暗示高臣能为这种情况做些事情。
可是，可能，应该公司就快搬了，所以高臣都没表示。
就随便问两句：“是冷气坏了吗？“最近天气很热，所以感觉不到冷"
=="
*掌声给高臣*
哪是不是代表我们还需忍两个星期呢？
实际行动是我们要的。
请快快让我们呼吸顺畅。

坏人

2010-03-05T15:35:00.002+08:00

你继续做坏人吧！反正好人难做。做坏人对你，对我会比较好过。。。。。。
呸！呸！呸！
你以为我没试过做了后悔的事吗？
干吗偏偏你要教训我啊!
为什么要酱对我?
希望你开心
继续开心，因为我要学会不在乎~

2010-01-20T11:51:00.000+08:00

最近很爱刘力杨的礼物。

印象最深刻的礼物(鞋子)是我21岁的生日礼物。

一班中学好友从马来西亚把礼物寄到澳洲给我。

我还记得postman在屋外喊门时，我在做着早上的gongyo.

开门，邮差告诉我收件人是Ng Yee Shuan, 真的非常惊喜。

盒子里是一双4寸高的高跟鞋，米色，鞋头还有蝴蝶结，好漂亮！

还有一张卡片，有朋友们的祝贺与签名~

真的真的很感动。

鞋子始终不能耐久。

虽然现在不在家里的鞋厨了，但是这份心意以及感动会存在心中。

人人都说情侣间，朋友间，家人间都不好送鞋子。

因为是代表要把那人送走。

但，我不相信。

反正鞋子送不送，要走还是留不住。

如果送鞋子能决定一个人的去留，

那我希望送自己一双可以离开你的鞋子。

经过～

2010-01-17T18:08:00.002+08:00

经过这里，发现自己的确很忙，忙到很久很久都没看看自己的部落格．
很多事情都快忘记了．
原来自己快患上了老人痴呆症，不然，就是选择性失意．>_<

２００９，得到的很多，失去的也多．
２０１０，才刚开始～

很想念你们．
对，就是你们！

13 APRIL - 空闲的日子

2009-04-29T17:19:00.002+08:00

这几天的午餐很静，很空闲。
也好~ 因为空闲，让我知道了更多。
认清了我国新任首相 Najib 得脸孔。
意大利地震震毁了许多的古迹，人民无家可归，找不到家人。
我国两名学生被哈佛大学入取。
台湾歌手阿桑来不及披婚纱，就被乳癌带走了。
蒙古女被杀事件，找出了凶手，事情告一段落。但，那两位警察的真面目都没登过在报。
谋杀，抢劫，车祸的事件越来越多。
平安的日子越来越渺茫。。。。。。

祖父祖母的故事

2009-04-10T11:46:00.000+08:00

那天，我妈告诉我，她从来不曾问过关于她的父亲（我的外公）关于她的婆婆和公公（我的外祖父外祖母）。
因为，祖父祖母很早以前就已经过世了，所以妈也没想过要问关于自己的婆婆公公。

原来，我的外祖父在我外公七岁的有一天时，肚子很痛很痛，没钱看医生，然后，就酱躺在床上，受尽疼痛而过世的。
虽然，到现在我们也不懂他的得病是什么，但是，应该就是我们现在人所说的绝症吧！

当祖父去世时，祖母就承担起照顾孩子的责任。
他们的年代，要喝水是必须到井里提水。--〉（就好像每次在电视里所看到的剧情）
但是，在外公13岁时，政府终于提供水笼头，让人民可以更容易的提水。
但，提供水笼头对外公家庭来说并不是一件好事吧！~
祖母为了家里的小孩，拿了两个桶，到指定地方拿水。
水笼头只有两个，而要拿水的人却多不胜数，大家都提着两个桶，争先恐后的拿水。
有一个老伯伯，因为要争着拿水，所以就出拳头，往我祖母的背后用力的打下去。
以前的男人，都会学习功夫来保护自己和家人。
而，相信那老伯伯也有工夫低。因为祖母被他打后背后肿了起来，然后，不能像往常一样行动，一直躺在床上，最后就过世了。
外祖父外祖母的故事就好像连续剧一样。
妈和我们几个瓜都很难相信那么戏剧性的事情会发生在我们的家族里。*_*

虽然，祖父祖母有点死得不明不白或有些冤枉，但又有谁可以做些什么呢？
只愿，他们能在下一世能过的比较好~~

邪恶的女人

2009-04-08T16:34:00.002+08:00

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighbouring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death.

The question was: What do women really want?

Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, And to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was betterthan death, He accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: The princess, the priests, the wise men, and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.

Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be high as the witch was famous through out the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first.The old witch wanted to marry

Sir Lancelot, The most noble of the Knights of the Round Table, And Arthur's closest friend! Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunch-backed and hideous, had only one tooth, Smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc.He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life. He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden, But Lancelot, having learnt of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He saidnothing was too big of a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life. And the reservation of the Round Table. Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and the witch answered.

Arthur's question thus: 'What a woman really wants?'
She said, 'Is to be in charge of her own life.'

Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth. And that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it was.The neighbouring monarch granted Arthur his freedom.

And Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding. The honeymoon hour approached and, Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom.But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed.

The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened. The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth be her horrible and deformed self only half the time. And the beautiful maiden the other half.

'Which would you prefer? She asked him. 'Beautiful during the day or at night?'

Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day he could have a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch!
Or,Would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day?But by night a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous, intimate moments with?

(If you are a man reading this...) What would YOUR choice be?
（If you are a woman reading this) What would YOUR MAN'S choice be?

What Lancelot chose, is given below: Noble Lancelot, knowing the answer the witch gave Arthur to his question, He said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself.

Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time. Because, he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.

Now... what is the moral to this story? The moral is...

1) There is a witch in every woman no matter how beautiful she is!
2) If you don't let a woman have her own way, things are going to get ugly.

So, always remember: IT'S EITHER 'HER WAY' OR IT'S 'NO WAY'

~hahaha~

女人是邪恶的~
明明自己就是要保持漂亮一整天，但，还是喜欢问。
问到自己满意的答案还好。
万一，答案并非自己满意的就会闹脾气，说男人不懂她的心。
其实，不是男人不懂女人的心。
他们只是不够细心。
有些时候小小事情可以令女人开心，但，男人就是不肯屈服在那小小事情上。
所以啊，女人邪恶是没错的~！+-+
只要你的邪恶不是带来伤害，男人还是会掉进你邪恶背后的美丽陷阱 *-*

Jia Le 09 BirthDAY-25 March

2009-03-26T14:20:00.003+08:00

对不起，不能陪在你身边渡过27岁的生日。

记得，你是关着眼睛听我为你唱生日歌，许愿和吹蜡烛。因为那天你真的太累了。

但是。。。还是希望你会为这提早的庆祝，而感到开心。

祝你，生日快乐，幸福快乐~~

Updating~

2009-02-28T22:54:00.005+08:00

Finally~

The photo had been save in my Labtop.
((i m too lazy n buzy））

Let's see what had happened on CNY 1st~

da jie went back to Celebrate New Yr with us..
meet up my uni frens who i always miss them so much :p
A fun and successful North Chapter CNY Gathering ~

reunion Dinner

We are young and the kids is cute

Members who attend the Gathering

three sista

my lovely family~

A memorable gathering

Ox year is my year..n i wish i can achieve what i want in this yr.

ShArING ToucHIng STOry Day

2009-01-15T13:56:00.002+08:00

在公司看完同事send给我的文章,眼眶竟装满满满的眼泪.
如果没读过,就好好的用些时间,读一读.

千萬不要跟你所愛的人嘔氣太久
這是個真實的故事
一個個無情的誤解﹐紛亂了幸福的腳步。當命運的死結終於用代價打開﹐一切都為時已晚﹐接婆婆來家安度晚年﹐結果卻背離我們的初衷﹐結婚二年後﹐先生跟我商量把婆婆從鄉下接來安度晚年。
先生很小時父親就過世了﹐他是婆婆唯一的寄託﹐婆婆一個人扶養他長大﹐供他讀完大學。
"含辛茹苦"這四個字用在婆婆的身上﹐絕對不為過！
我連連說好﹐馬上給婆婆收拾出一間南向帶陽台的房間﹐可以曬太陽﹐養花草什麼的。
先生站在陽光充足的房間﹐一句話沒說﹐卻突然舉起我在房間裡轉圈﹐在我張牙舞爪地求饒時﹐先生說﹕"接咱媽去。"
先生身材高大﹐我喜歡貼著他的胸口﹐感覺嬌小的身體隨時可被他抓起來塞進口袋。當我和先生發生爭執而又不肯屈服時﹐先生就把我舉起來﹐在腦袋上方搖搖晃晃﹐一直到我嚇得求饒。這種驚恐的快樂讓我迷戀。
婆婆在鄉下的習慣一時改不掉。我習慣買束鮮花擺在客廳裡﹐婆婆後來實在忍不住﹕"你們娃娃不知道過日子﹐買花幹什麼？又不能當飯吃！"
我笑著說﹕ "媽﹐家裡有鮮花盛開﹐人的心情會好。"
婆婆低著頭嘟噥﹐先生就笑﹕"媽﹐這是城裡人的習慣﹐慢慢的﹐你就習慣了。"
婆婆不再說什麼﹐但每次見我買了鮮花回來﹐依舊忍不住問花了多少錢﹐我說了﹐他就" 嘖嘖"咂嘴。有時﹐見我買大包小包的東西回家﹐她就問這個多少錢那個多少錢﹐我─如實回答﹐她的嘴就咂的更響了。
先生擰著我的鼻子說﹕"小傻瓜你別告訴她真實價錢不就行了嗎？ "

快樂的生活漸漸有了不和諧音。
婆婆最看不慣我先生起來做早餐。在她看來﹐大男人給老婆燒飯﹐哪有這個道理？
早餐桌上﹐婆婆的臉經常陰著﹐我裝做看不見。婆婆便把筷子弄得叮噹亂響﹐這是她無聲的抗議。我在少年宮做舞蹈老師﹐跳來跳去已夠累的了﹐早晨暖洋洋的被窩﹐我不想扔掉這惟一的享受﹐於是﹐我對婆婆的抗議裝聾作啞。婆婆偶樂幫我做一些家務﹐她一做我就更忙了。比如﹐她把垃圾袋通通收集起來﹐說等攢夠了賣廢塑料﹐搞得家裡到處都是廢塑料袋；她捨不得用洗潔精洗碗﹐為了不傷她的自尊﹐我只好偷偷再洗一遍。
一次﹐我晚上偷偷洗碗被婆婆看見了﹐她" 啪"的一聲摔上門﹐趴在自己的房間裡放聲大哭。先生左右為難﹐事後﹐先生一晚上沒跟我說話﹐我撒嬌﹐耍賴﹐他也不理我。
我火了﹐ 問他﹕" 我究竟哪裡做錯了？ "先生瞪著我說﹕"你就不能遷就一下﹐碗再不乾淨也吃不死人吧？ "
後來﹐好長一段時間﹐婆婆不跟我說話﹐家裡的氣氛開始逐漸尷尬。
那段日子﹐先生活得很累﹐不知道要先逗誰開心好。
婆婆為了不讓兒子做早餐﹐義無反顧地承擔起燒早飯的"重任 "。婆婆看著先生吃得快樂﹐再看看我﹐用眼神譴責我沒有盡到做妻子的責任。為了逃避尷尬﹐我只好在上班的路上買包奶打發自己。
睡覺時﹐先生有點生氣地問我﹕"蘆荻﹐是不是嫌棄我媽做飯不乾淨才不在家吃？ "翻了一個身﹐他扔給我冷冷的脊背任憑我委屈的流淚。
最後﹐先生嘆氣﹕"蘆荻﹐就當是為了我﹐你在家吃早餐行不行？"
我只好回到尷尬的早餐桌上。

那天早晨﹐我喝著婆婆燒的稀飯﹐忽然一陣反胃﹐肚子裡所有的東西都搶著嚮外奔跑﹐我拼命地壓製著不讓它們往上涌﹐但還是沒壓住﹐我扔下碗﹐衝進衛生間﹐吐得稀裡嘩啦。當我喘息著平定下來時﹐見婆婆夾雜著家鄉話的抱怨和哭聲﹐先生站在衛生間門口憤怒地望著我﹐我幹張著嘴巴說不出話﹐我真的不是故意的。
我和先生開始了第一次激烈的爭吵﹐婆婆先是瞪著眼看我們﹐然後起身﹐蹣跚著出門去了。先生恨恨地瞅了我一眼﹐下樓追婆婆去了。
意外迎來新生命﹐卻突然葬送了婆婆的性命！
整整三天﹐先生沒有回家﹐連電話都沒有。我正氣著﹐想想自從婆婆來後﹐我夠委屈自己了﹐還要我怎麼樣？莫明其妙的﹐我總想嘔吐﹐吃什麼都沒有胃口﹐加上亂七八糟的家事﹐心情差到了極點。
後來﹐還是同事說﹕"蘆荻﹐你臉色很差﹐還是去醫院看看吧。 "
醫院檢查的結果是我懷孕了。我明白了那天早晨我為什麼突然嘔吐﹐幸福中夾著一絲幽怨﹕先生和作為過來人的婆婆﹐他們怎麼就絲毫沒有想到這呢？
在醫院門口﹐我看見了先生。僅僅三天沒見﹐他憔悴了許多。我本想轉身就走﹐但他的模樣讓我心疼﹐沒忍住﹐我喊了他。
先生循著聲音看見了我﹐卻好像不認識了﹐眼神裡有一絲藏不住院的厭惡﹐它們冰冷地刺傷了我。
我跟自己說不要看他不要看他﹐伸手攔了一輛出租車。那時﹐我多想向先生大喊一聲﹕" 親愛的我要給你生寶貝了！"然後被他舉起來﹐幸福地旋轉。我希望的沒有發生。
在出租車裡﹐我的眼淚才遲遲地落下來。為什麼一場爭吵就讓愛情糟糕到這樣的程度？
回家後﹐我躺在床上想先生﹐想他滿眼的厭惡。我握著被子的一角哭了。
夜裡﹐家裡有翻抽屜的聲音。打開燈﹐我看見先生淚流滿面的臉。他正在拿錢。我冷冷地看著他﹐一聲不響。他對我視若不見﹐拿著存折和錢匆匆離開。或許先生是打算徹底離開我了。真是理智的男人﹐情與錢分得如此清楚。我冷笑了幾下﹐眼淚"嘩啦嘩啦 "的流下來。
第二天﹐我沒去上班。想徹底清理一下自己的思緒﹐找先生好好談一次。
找到先生的公司﹐秘書有點奇怪地看著我說﹕"陳總的母親出了車禍﹐正在醫院裡呢。"我瞠目結舌。飛奔到醫院﹐找到先生時﹐婆婆已經去了。先生一直不看我﹐一臉僵硬。我望著婆婆幹瘦蒼白的臉﹐眼淚止不住﹕天哪！怎麼會是這樣？
直到安葬了婆婆﹐先生也沒跟我說一句話﹐甚至看我一眼都帶著深深的厭惡。關於車禍﹐我還是從別人嘴裡了解到大概﹐婆婆出門後迷迷糊糊地向車站走﹐她想回老家﹐先生越追她走得越快﹐穿過馬路時﹐一輛公交車迎面撞過來……
我終於明白了先生的厭惡﹐如果那天早晨我沒有嘔吐﹐如果我們沒有爭吵﹐如果……
在他的心昊﹐我是間接殺死他母親的罪人。

先生默不作聲搬進了婆婆的房間﹐每晚回來都滿聲酒氣。而我一直被愧疚和可憐的自尊壓得喘不過氣來﹐想跟他解釋﹐想跟他說我們快有孩子了﹐但看著他冰冷的眼神﹐又把所有的話都咽了回去。我寧願先生打我一頓或者罵我一頓﹐雖然這一切事故都不是我的故意。
日子一天一天地窒息著重覆下去﹐先生回家的時間越來越晚。我們僵持著﹐比陌路人還要尷尬。我是繫在他心上的死結。
一次﹐我路過一家西餐廳﹐穿過透明的落地窗﹐我看見先生和一個年輕女孩面對面坐著﹐他輕輕地為女孩攏了攏頭髮﹐我就明白了一切。先是呆﹐然後我進了西餐廳﹐站在先生面前﹐死死盯著他看﹐眼裡沒有一滴淚。我什麼也不想說﹐也無話可說。
女孩看看我﹐看看我先生﹐站起來想走﹐我先生伸手按住她﹐然後﹐同樣死死地﹐絕不示弱地看著我。我只能聽見自己緩慢的心跳﹐一下一下跳動在瀕臨死亡般的蒼白邊緣。
輸了的是我﹐如果再站下去﹐我會和肚子裡的孩子一起倒下。
那一夜﹐先生沒回家﹐他用這樣的方式讓我明白﹕隨著婆婆的去世﹐我們的愛情也死了。先生再也沒有回來。有時﹐我下班回來﹐看見衣櫥被動過了──先生回來拿一點自己的東西。我不想給他打電話﹐原先還有試圖向他解釋一番的念頭﹐一切都徹底失去了。

我一個人生活﹐一個人去醫院體檢﹐每每看見有男人小心地扶著妻子去做體檢﹐我的心便碎提不像樣子。同事隱約勸我打掉算了﹐我豎決說不﹐我發瘋了一樣要生下這個孩子﹐也算對婆婆的死的補償吧。
我下班回來﹐先生坐在客廳裡﹐滿屋子煙霧彌漫﹐茶幾上擺著一張紙。沒必要看﹐我知道上面是什麼內容。先生不在家的二個多月﹐我逐漸學會了平靜。我看著他﹐摘下帽子﹐說﹕" 你等一下﹐我簽字。"
先生看著我﹐眼神複雜﹐和我一樣。我一邊解大衣扣子一邊在心裡對自己說﹕"不哭不哭……"
眼睛很疼﹐但我不讓它們流出眼淚。掛好大衣﹐先生的眼睛死死盯在我已隆起的肚子上。
我笑笑﹐走過去﹐拖過那張紙﹐看也不看﹐簽上自己的名字﹐推給他。
"蘆荻﹐你懷孕了？ "
自從婆婆出事後﹐這是先生第一次跟我說話。我再也管不住眼睛﹐眼淚"嘩啦 "地流下來。
我說﹕ "是啊﹐不過沒事﹐你可以走了。"
先生沒走﹐黑暗裡﹐我們對望著。先生慢慢趴在我身上﹐眼淚滲透了被子。而在我心裡﹐很多東西已經很遠了﹐遠到即使我奔跑都拿不到了。不記得先生跟我說過多少遍" 對不起"了﹐我也曾經以為自己會原諒﹐卻不能﹐在西餐廳先生當著那個女孩的面﹐他看我的冰冷的眼神﹐這輩子﹐我忘記不了。
我們在彼此心上劃下了深深的傷痕。
我的﹐是無意的；他的﹐是刻意的。
期待冰釋前嫌﹐但過去的已無法重來！

除了想起肚子裡的孩子時心裡是暖的﹐而對先生﹐我心冷如霜﹐不吃他買的任何東西﹐不要他的任何禮物﹐不跟他說話。從在那張紙上簽字起﹐婚姻以及愛情統統在我的心裡消亡。有時先生試圖回臥室﹐他來﹐我就去客廳﹐先生只好睡回婆婆的房間。
夜裡﹐從先生的房間有時會傳來輕微的呻吟﹐我一聲不響。這是他習慣玩的伎倆﹐以前只要我不理他了﹐他就裝病﹐我就會乖乖投降﹐關心他怎麼了﹐他就一把抓住我哈哈大笑。他忘記了﹐那時﹐我會心疼是因為有愛情﹐現在﹐我們還有什麼？
先生用呻吟斷斷續續待續到孩子出生。他幾乎每天都在給孩子買東西﹐嬰兒用品﹐兒童用品﹐以及孩子喜歡的書﹐一包包的﹐快把他的房間堆滿了。我知道他是用這樣的方式感動我﹐而我已經不為所動。他只好關在房間裡﹐用電腦"□ 哩啪啦"敲字﹐或許他正網戀﹐但對我已經是無所謂的事了。
轉年春未的一個深夜﹐劇烈的腹痛讓我大喊一聲﹐先生一個箭步衝進來﹐好像他根本就沒脫衣服睡覺﹐為的就是等這個時刻的到來。先生背起我就往樓下跑﹐攔車﹐一路上緊緊地攥著我的手﹐不停地給我擦掉額上的汗。到了醫院﹐背起我就往產科跑。
趴在他幹瘦而溫暖的背上﹐一個念頭忽然闖進習裡﹕這一生﹐誰還會像他這樣疼愛我？
先生扶著產房的門﹐看著我進去﹐眼神暖融融的我忍著陣痛對他笑了一下。

從產房出來﹐先生望著我和兒子﹐眼睛濕濕地笑啊笑啊的。我摸了一下他的手。先生望著我﹐微笑﹐然後﹐緩慢而疲憊地軟塌塌倒下去。我痛喊他的名字……
先生笑著﹐沒睜開疲憊的眼睛
……我以為再也不會為先生流一滴淚﹐事實卻是﹐從沒有過如此劇烈的疼撕扯著我的身體。
醫生說﹐我先生的肝癌發現時已是晚期﹐他能堅持這麼久是絕對的奇蹟。
我問醫生什麼時候發現的？醫生說五個月前﹐然後安慰我﹕ "準備後事吧。"
我不顧護士的阻攔﹐回家﹐衝進先生的房間打開電腦﹐心一下子被疼窒息了。先生的肝癌在五個月前就已發現﹐他的呻吟是真的﹐我居然還以為

……電腦上的20萬字﹐是先生寫給兒子的留言﹕
孩子﹐為了你﹐我一直在堅持﹐等看你一眼再倒下﹐是我現在最大的願望
……我知道﹐你的一生會有很多快樂或者遇到挫折﹐如果我能夠陪你經歷這個成長歷程
﹐該是多麼快樂﹐但爸爸沒有這個機會了。爸爸在電腦上﹐把你一生可能遇到的問題一一地寫下來﹐等你遇到這些問題時﹐可以參考爸爸的意見…………
孩子﹐寫完這20多萬字﹐我感覺像陪你經歷了整個成長過程。真的﹐爸爸很快樂。好好愛你的媽媽﹐她很辛苦﹐是最愛你的人﹐也是我最愛的人……
從兒子去幼兒園到讀小學﹐讀中學﹐大學﹐到工作以及愛情遙方方面面﹐事無巨細都寫到了。

先生也給我寫了信﹕
親愛的﹐娶了你是我一輩子最大的幸福﹐原諒我對你的傷害﹐原諒我隱瞞了病情﹐因為我想讓你有個好的心情等待孩子的出生
……親愛的﹐如果你哭了﹐說明你已經原諒我了﹐我就笑了﹐謝謝你一直愛我……
這些禮物﹐我擔心沒有機會親自送給孩子了﹐麻煩你每年替我送他幾份禮物﹐包裝盒子上都寫著送禮物的日期……

回到醫院﹐先生依舊在昏迷中。
我把兒子抱過來﹐放在他身邊﹐我說﹕"你睜開眼笑一下﹐我要讓兒子記住他在你懷抱裡的溫暖 ……"先生艱難地睜開眼﹐微微地笑了一下。
兒子偎依在他懷裡﹐舞動粉色的小手。
我 "喀嚓喀嚓 "按快門﹐淚水在臉上恣意地流 ……

*****
在你看完了故事，並哭紅了你的雙眼時，記得這個故事警惕我們，有話要講出來，不要憋在心裡，導致更大的誤會更不要跟你所愛的人嘔氣太久，或是做出讓彼此無法挽回的錯誤，誰知道，明天會怎樣呢，你說是不是?
曾看過一句話，非常受用 :
[如果發現明天就是世界末日了，對你現在所說所做的事情會不會後悔？行動說話之前想一想，不要造成永遠無法彌補的遺憾 ]

mOOd Not Under Control DAY

2009-01-06T12:51:00.005+08:00

A New Year Come~!

A lot of thing had happened on the 1st week of 2009.
Today is only 6th day of Jan, but seem like everything is not under my control.
My temper, My tears, My pain, My stress came to say "HI" to me without giving me any notice!!! (Damn~~!)
I hate myself when I realise I have made someone sad,I have made someone really mad on my stupid emotion~~
I have made someone shouting on me ........ He shout until I feel my heart had stopped suddenly. MY mind appeared --- Is him the one I knew before?
I give thousand of reason for myself not to shout him back. IF we really shouting to each other, I believe both of us will just left the car at the road side and go to police station after one hour to find back my car.
I didn't fight back in this situation doesn't mean that I admit I did wrong at that time. I thanks to the traffic jam and the car that let me see clearer on him.
It's too late to haiz~~
I start asking myself "Am I the right girl for him?"
Are we really can find the perfect match in this world?
I try to persuade myself don't think too much.
Don't be so sensitive
Don't be so silly
But~~~~is very hard ok?!!
I know what should I do to solve all this stupid thinking ...

09年的降临

2008-12-31T10:11:00.000+08:00

再过十几个小时,2009年就降临了.
不得不承认自己在2008年里好像没什么大制作.
让我好好回忆一下08里所做过的一些事~~

2月: 到日本大石寺.还去佐渡岛.这是第二次感受到下雪的兴奋.
5,6,7月: 应该是在为纪念总会忙着筹备的工作吧~!
8月 : 搬家 . . . 终于有属于自己的房间.说真的,搬家好累啊~!太多的东西要移,太多的垃圾要丢,太多的灰尘要清扫,太多的钱要花~
12月: 夏日炎炎II – 由于整个旅程我们都用了好多钱在吃方面,所以决定把它换成 夏日圆圆. 哈哈!~

好啦~真的没什么大制作啦!
Anyway, 祝贺大家HAPPY NEW YEAR~~!!

爱,你明白吗?

2008-11-26T15:53:00.000+08:00

他说”我想我和她应该要分手了.”
我问”huh?为什么” (虽然,我不认识他的女友)
“因为我们每天吵架,很累.感情淡了.”
“情侣吵架是一定会有的.”
“我们很常吵.就好像,我已经星期五,星期六,星期日,星期一都陪她了.只是昨天和朋友去喝茶,她就说我最需要你在身边时,你却没陪我.”
“……..”
“她很黏我,我没有自由.我已经常陪她了,她还是会说我没陪她.”
“我觉得你应该和她好好的谈.不要冲动.毕竟五年感情”
“谈过了.虽然一开始她会明白,但是,过了一段时间,她又会乱啦.所以今晚才会想去喝酒.”
“酒醒后,问题还是在,还是要解决.其实,如果你不再爱她了,不管别人怎么说你最后还是会和她分开.”
“是酱的吗?”
我只是微笑点点头.
“我只是担心一样事情.她曾经说过,如果我和她分手,她会把自己变成一个夜店妹.(常常去夜店,喝酒,和别人一夜情) 我不能想象她和别人one night stand.”
心想:”厉害,抛狠话!”
“但是,你也没有理由和她在一起只因为她抛下那句话.那么你们在一起还有爱吗?”
“就是咯……..”
“想清楚才做决定吧!晚上别喝太多.”
电话响的正是时候,结束了我和他的对话.
**************************************************************************

“爱”就是让人又欢喜又痛恨.
每个人爱的方式都不一样.
她爱他所以她要无时无刻都可以在他身边.
他爱她,但是他需要自己的时间,自由.他的世界里,不可以只是给她.
他有陪她,但她还是觉得不够.
他陪她了,她却觉的不够,所以他开始烦.他不明白为什么她不能给他一些自由….
当两个人一直在不够和不明白的圈子里转着,事情就会越难解决.
没有人肯退一步.那圈子越转越大, 彼此的距离也越来越远,转久了,渐渐的也会感觉累.
如果当初有人肯让步,你觉得他们是否还会开开心心的在一起吗?
没有人知道吧~~~!

祝福天下有情人终成眷属~

突然间想起她

2008-11-05T10:36:00.002+08:00

也许真的好久没有她的消息了.
不是不要联络,而是每次call 她还是msg她,她都很少回复.

最后一次见到她的时候,是在七月吧!
那时,因为她要忙着去自己的岗位,而我要忙着化妆所以只是抱一抱,慰问了几句就没再见面了.
有少许的遗憾.为什么没有在对的时间相遇,那或许我们还可以聊更多.

我和姐,她与她的妹是从小时候就已经在一起玩到大的好好姐妹.
我们一起分享秘密,一起互相鼓励,一起出去玩,一起参加宗教的所有活动…..
直到一些事情发生在她的身上,
那件事情后,她开始了另一种生活.
这种生活只有自己开心,而身边的家人每天都在担心她.
说多了,就说我们不了解她.不说又不忍心看她变成另一个人似.
可是往往很多事情都不是我们控制….
她慢慢离我们越来越远….开始听不到她的消息….开始有些陌生…对这些感觉都感到害怕,无助~~

Anyway,一切都已经不能挽回了…
我问自己:
如果有一天在人来人往的路上看见她,我还会大声的喊住她和她拥抱吗?
….
….
原来答案还是---我会.

EVERGREEN 19th ANNUAL DINNER

2008-11-03T23:16:00.004+08:00

地点: PENANG EVERGREEN LAUREL HOTEL
日期: 25 OCT 2008
主题: PIRATES AND THE CARIBBEAN

一年一度的Annual Dinner 又到了．
好开心，好兴奋．因为多数的同事都有跟着主题来打扮．最令人难忘的打扮就是八爪鱼-DAVID JOHN与船长-JACK SPARROW.

我的海盗同事

BEST MALE DRESSER-DAVID JOHN

JACK SPARROW 是当晚的MC．是主办当局特地从KL 请到PENANG主持大局的MC.
说真的，他真的真的很像戏里的JACK SPARROW.他的动作，他的声音，他的表情都可以很容易的就让我们张开嘴巴的＂哇～～，这个家伙怎么可以那么像ＪＡＣＫ呢？＂

不只那样，当晚的节目也超精彩的．有性感的肚皮舞，令人笑翻天的乐团以及紧张的幸运抽奖．

她们被拖上台玩游戏

从来不怎么有运的我，竟然在当晚可以抽到一架amplifier．虽然不是什么大奖，但对我来说已是一个满意的意外惊喜．：）
其它大奖有NOKIA N75,Sony LCD TV, DIGITAL CAM,and USD200.

Anyway, 虽然节目很精彩很有趣但是食物很糟糕.
这次是以西餐为主．一开始：开胃菜，然后：汤，接下来就有不同的主菜，最后是甜品．
出菜方式不是一人一碟而是一大盘的菜，然后就拿自己要吃的份量．（就好像去吃喜酒）
可悲的是主菜没有一样好吃，所以很多人都吃不饱～

这次为了让大家可以培养深厚的感情，主办当局为我们办了两晚的dinner.第一晚是正式的，而第二晚是非正式的晚餐．

地点：QE II (near penang port)
日期：26 OCT 2008

QE II 是很不错的地方．它像ＰＵＢ也像ＣＡＦＥ．它，以白色为主，里面有着很摩登的Design.窗口都是落地窗．
因为是在码头旁边所以无论是坐在露天的或遮盖的都感到很凉快．（放心，没有鱼腥味）
我喜欢这里的气氛，听着音乐，吹着海风再加上身边坐着的都是公司里的好姐妹，聊聊天，哈哈大笑，拍拍照，很舒服．
今晚的晚餐跟作晚比起来简直是天与地．不是我夸张但是这都是很多其他同事的意见．
有羊肉啦，Satay 啦，抄果条啦，香脆的炸鸡啦，Ais Kacang 还有很多好好吃的小食.

好美的风景呀~~!!

很开心的结束了三天两夜的假期~~

生日快乐,小妹!

2008-10-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

20号是小妹的生日.我们并没有为她大事庆祝,只是让她有个小小的惊喜.

那晚,daddy放工回家前就已经买了蛋糕.
回家时,刚刚好和我一起到家,所以我进屋帮忙把风,确定小妹没在楼下,然后daddy就快速的把蛋糕放进冰箱.
我们平时都不会打开Wet Kitchen 的冰箱,所以蛋糕放在那应该都不会让小妹发现吧!~
果然一切都很顺利…..

她并没有看见我吩咐佣人把蛋糕偷偷的放在车厢,她也没发现到我叫可欣偷偷的把蛋糕放进百家利的冰箱~~ (我的计划真是太犀利了吧!~~)哇哈哈!

虽然,最后一步的时候,她猜到我们会捧蛋糕出来,但这是不能避免的.因为把灯关上时,只要是生日星,一定知道是要吹蜡烛的时间到了吧!~~

祝你生日快乐~~

小妹与可爱活泼的小朋友

少了大姐与阿弟的全家照

昨晚和阿姐,她妈妈与小妹到THE GARDEN的泰国餐厅吃晚餐.

晚餐是阿姐请的.因为小妹生日那天,她不得空庆祝所以就决定请她吃饭.

餐厅名 : RAK THAI

地点　：THE GARDEN (LG)

这间餐厅的环境不错．食物也好吃，我特别喜欢它的ＴＯＭＹＡＭ　ＳＯＵＰ．好好喝呀～～～～！

TOM YAM SOUP~

MANGO RICE

还吃了鱼，Kang Kong with chili, Green Curry Chicken and eggs (with something inside).

四个人吃了四菜一汤，只是RM100多．．．（walao---便宜吧！）

吃饱了就开始拍无聊的照片

我,小妹&阿姐

本人觉的这张照片把我拍的妙~~

结婚~

2008-10-20T15:07:00.000+08:00

每次参加婚礼都会有很多的感触.
心里会有一股结婚的冲动~
好想立刻对乐说:”不如我们明天去注册吧!”
哈哈~!
听见别人的男友如何向自己地女友求婚,心里都充满感动.
因为我觉得求婚是可以看见或听见自己爱的人向我许下的承诺,就算只是简单的一句:”我会永远的照顾你”.
就好象和以下的歌词Click到 ***
<<一个微妙的体贴我知道今天会是情人节不是第一次听你说永远泪水还是涌成温泉>>
T-T
很感动吧!~~~~

曾经问过自己,什么时候会结婚呢?
三年前觉得是25 岁.
两年前觉得是26岁.
至今总觉得26岁结婚好像太早了吧!~ (女人总是善变的动物) :)

其实想几岁结婚也并不是自己能决定的.
听过太多的例子-拍拖了好几年,买了屋子,以为再过不久就可以披上婚纱,漂漂亮亮的嫁给自己心爱的人.
可是到头来却只是自己的梦,人家的心早已不知道飞向哪儿,屋子买了也可以不娶,结婚照拍了也可以当垃圾放在一旁.
怎么世上会有如此不知所谓的事呢?

**如果我有机会见到他, 我会狠狠的刮那男的几把掌! ~~然后, 再狠狠的往他的小弟踢一下 ~~ (够他好受啦)**

太过分了吧~!
说完就完,说不要就不要~
毕竟曾经爱了好几年,怎么会说不爱就不爱了呢???
感情事永远就是那么令人难以明白~~~

不是真的爱她,就不要向她求婚.
求婚了,就要负起这个责任,任何事情都是要顾虑到另一伴,而不是随随便便说分开就分开.
伤害了她,你或许也不好过.
但是,被你伤害的,往往都要用比你更多的时间来疗伤.~~

在这里给能真正成为夫妻的 - 真的要好好珍惜身边另一伴,
因为过去世深厚的缘分,才能让你们在今世成为夫妻.

OCTOBER 08

2008-10-15T14:15:00.000+08:00

When I woke up this morning, feel so lazy~~
Don’t feel like going to work today
These few days, not much thing can do in the office. It is so silent when no phone ring, no incoming email and no interacting within me and the fellow colleagues.
I know, even I am not going, my colleagues still can cover my job. I want to continue my dream and the smell of my bed is seducing me zzzzzzzz
++++++++++++++++++ == ++++++++++++++++++ == +++++++++++++++++++++++

In the end, I brush my teeth, wash face, change proper clothes, pray and drive ahead to the office.
*hehe***(I am not tht kind of irresponsibility person)

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Internet connection in new house had fixed.
Finally I can check my hotmail, gmail, friendster, facebook, MSN, updating and reading blog every night.

sure my mum will start complaint me n my sis not accompany her to watch tv at night if we on9 every night.so must have a good plan to avoid her complaint~~~~~~~~~!!!!

“thanks” for the TM people who finally solve the internet problem~almost one month they had used to fix it~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~so "EFFECTIVE" right?

Successful of General Meeting~~

2008-07-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

Hooray!!
maybe it is too late to shout HOORAY
but~~~
i still feel like shouting Hooray~~~
Congratulation to all Malaysia Nichiren Shoshu members
~~our KICK OFF 2009 GENERAL MEETING had held successfully on 20th JULY 2008~~
thanks for all the members who help us alot in front or behind the stage
thanks for all the members who attend this meeting, without u all, it can't be a wonderful day
thanks for opening dancer--u all smile like sunshine on that day~~
thanks for the turtle and finale dancers--u all gave me a big surprise~~GREAT~~!!
ahahaha
feel so touching when the meeting finished.
my tears just came out when everything end
i will miss the day we strike hard for our performance~~
oh ya!~~we took alot pic on that day
should upload it when i go back home :)

She is sad

2008-07-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

I am very free in Office today~~~!
so I decide to read through the blog which belong to my frens or family.
and i found out - she.
She is someone close to me,when i read her BLOG only i realise she is not very Happy on this 2 weeks

(hey is 2 weeks not 2 days)

I am quite Sad when i read it.
I know what had happened on her cos she told me before.
I tried to explain to her at tht time but she got a wrong msg
she thought i am trying to scold her like how the others treat her...
feel speechless ~~~
anyway still hope she can be happy ~~~~

human is like this :**##
everything will become negative when we are in the bad mood
even though the people is trying to help you but you thought they are trying to put shit on you
good thing telling in the right time is good thing
but when telling in the wrong time den it will become bad thing

so what we can say next time?
or ar we suppose to wait the people good mood only tell her???
it is to late to tell them untill they feel good?

GOOD STORY

2008-07-01T13:51:00.000+08:00

oh ya~~i got below story from my colleague.Maybe many people read before,but this story really touch me.It is not easy to be a women~~if me,i don't think i can forgive my husband who betray on me.haha~~
below is the story >>>
(is a long story,so prepare a cup of tea and some cookies before u start reading) :)

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled.

But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.

I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce.. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

So, Before Married, its only a lovely Dovey Love Birds.. But when after married, couple will share few love with their gift of love from what they are made.. its all about unselfishness and share thy BIG LOVE.. For me, there's nothing changes, its all about effort of being together and still can be very romantic when once knew of romance..

08 year's BirTHDAy

2008-05-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

A small surprise on this years~~
My friend who stay in Aus msg & called me to wish me..thanks YY & Monkey

A little bit disappointment on this year~~
My friends who quite close to me last time, forget my birthday. I know it is nothing for some people, but for me, their wishes can make me happy on the day. OK~~fine!!maybe i should not request too much,since the one who very close to me is with me on tht day~~ :)

Anyway,i still had a wonderful Bday Celebration with my family & LE.... The present who gave by LE is abit~~~erm~~~surprise?cos is a perfume!!i never think he will give me perfume,haha!!

I like the color of the box-->BLUE
and the Bottle

I also got nail color present form my Sister..AHWEN

Let's check the color...
got BLUE also
I don think it look pretty on my nail.
I like Blue color but doesn't mean Blue nail color is suitable for me.
hmm~~~
I tried to apply on my nail, but it really look abit weired
The main point is-->i m not good to apply it wahaha

Anyway~~thanks my dear AHWEN & LE
oh ya~~my parents bought high heel for me & my fren SW also bought me a piece of cake & apple strudel.

Many Thanks to them~~~~

WHY IS ME??

2008-04-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

As a customer service in my company, one of my responsibility is take booking from the customer.
Now, I realized something.
When there is something happened on the Booking, Customer Service are the FIRST one who should be blame.
I couldn't understand~~!!
WHY?
The mistake happened not because of me only.
But why they just push all the "sai" to us?
ok, I admit i should follow all the procedure, cos if i follow the procedure, this issues can be avoid. (this is what my HOD told me)
but~~~why?
the other department got wrong also.
They never admit is their mistake also. (however, the colleague who involve in this got say Sorry to me personally)
haih~~really disappointed..
am i really suitable for this job???

CoNtiNue!~~

2008-03-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

Haha~~now only got time to continue my last blog.
Japan is a very nice place, especially when the lake, road and mountain full of snow! ^-^
I like snow~~~ok--should say i LOVE snow~~hooray!!>>>

sushi menu is behind me!

Oiishi~~~ ^-^
a very nice place to visit
A very big FERRY to Sado island
Inside the Ferry...

She is Soooooooo~~ CUTE!
Yeah>>
**Happy Birthday to my dearest sister**

The trip end with my sister's birthday :p

Japan~~i will c u again in next year!

忙碌的鼠年

2008-02-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

呼～～～
15天的鼠年就在我還沒準備之下就結束了 (",)
今年，從年初一開始拜年至年初六，間中還去了新加坡慶祝情人節，約了大學時的老友一起走走、聊天，看見他們時，感到非常舒服。因為，真的很久沒和他們胡鬧了。哈哈！

可愛的表妹向我們拜個早年

親愛的表姐，祝你生日快樂

ED with the soup of the days...the taste not bad

My Valentine's Lunch, so Yummy~~~~

I am so fulled tht day, he ordered three main course + the soup... of cos, i only eat one meal, so the others had eaten by Mr ED -- he is reli Geng!

TONY---he is thinking what food shld eat- cos all the pic of the food in the menu look good :)

n the end she only ordered one drink & one French toast

很可惜的，這次忘了和Monkey (Dave)拍照。下次再遇他時應該是明年吧！

初七和初六，忙著工作和收拾日本的行李。
星期四晚的飛機，到日本時，已是星期五的早晨。
這次一共有33位行徒，加我姐和EE SIAN哥，總數是35人。
OH YA！終於，見到了好久都沒見的大姐－說真的，她并沒改變很多，還是老樣子。

pearly, man man, me, ah ling & sally - b4 go into the plane

on the way to Japan, yeah!

Everyone is enjoying their breakfast which prepared by MyoEnJi Temple Hokeko Member

we are so Happy cos we will reach the destination soon

第一和第二天，我們在TOKYO，大石寺活動。在這兩天，我們只是參加儀式。TOKYO的天氣有些冷，大家的身上至少有三件衣服，才敢走出那暖暖的房間。沖涼后，一定要穿上襪子，不然，那地板會把我們的腳凍結。。。哇哈哈！第三天早上8點，我們又再次的出發。這次是前往新瀉[NIIGATA CITY]。從東京到新瀉須要7到8個小時的巴士。在途中，我們除了上廁所，吃，上巴士睡覺，就在沒其他事情可做。過了大約4個小時，這時大家都發現，一路上的風憬已轉換了。所有的河已結成冰，樹上已累積了雪，草地也被大雪蓋上了，對我們來說真是難得可見的情境。原本睡覺的朋友都開始積極的拍照起來。

GROUP PICTURES

MY dearest family - brother, me, sister, younger sister, papa n mama
pls look carefully on the FUJI MOUTAIN - it is so nice!

one of the stop before reach Niigata city
i like the view behind us

behind us was a lake before it cover by the snow

好啦，有些累了，明天再繼續。。。。。。hehe

FeBruaRy

2008-02-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

Today...ok i shld say Yday is the 1st day of Feb..
I will be very busy in this month.
1st is the celebration of CNY
2nd Celebration of VTD (valentine's day)
3rd is the trip to Japan..
when i go bek to work shld be end of the month of Feb..
haha..SO SHIOK!!!

Finally me n my colleagues received a good news today which is we will get our BONUS on MONDAY!
HoOOORAAAy!
when i told my mum abt this news...she also feel very happy..
she said:"Yeah!!!you can return back money for me!"
i almost fainted when she told me like this..haha!
but is true..i reli need to give her back her money...
so i think half of my bonus will belong to her :)

I am BaCK!!!

2008-01-31T23:12:00.000+08:00

oh yeah babe..i am back..haha!
從2007年5月至今，我已很久很久沒上來遊蕩了....好想念當年寫部落格的心情。
～～每當心情不好時，都會到部落格里把自己的悶氣發洩在部落格里（由於這是新的blog,所以都沒什麼內容)

好興奮咧！農曆新年就快到了，而我興奮的是因為我即將可以穿上自己辛苦賺錢所買的新衣。。。哈哈！很白痴吧！
雖然，大姐和小弟都因為讀書工作而不能回家過年，但在初九時，我們就能一家團聚的在國外過年了。

最後，希望這次能逗留久一些。。。

My job, trip and present

2007-05-28T16:46:00.000+08:00

Hooray!!
Finally I found a Job...
a job which the company near to my house..(even though i still need to pay RM1 for Toll)
the pay is quite good ~as i am a fresh graduate
it also provide benefit such as 16% EPF, insurance and RM 2 for lunch (enough for me to buy a drink haha)
5 days week (830am to 530pm)
quite GOOD rite?
this job will start at June, and hopefully it will be a good start in my Career. :p
oh ya, this Friday, i will join my family, bf and my mum's friends to Pulau Tenggol(Terengganu). I heard from the organizer that this island is a new island which near Redang. I asked or mentioned to my friend before about this island, but seem like no one know about it.
anywhere,
can't wait to go there....
cos really long time didn't go for trip, beach, sea...look forward to Tenggol so much!!!!!

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the day before yesterday i had went to shopping with my dearest daddy and sister.
at 1st, the purpose we went to the shopping center is to buy Spidermen3 tickets. unfortunately, it sold out...however, we change to Blades of Glory..
it is a comedy and i can't stop laughing from the start to the end wahaha.
beside the movie, another thing which make me happy is the BLINK BLINK necklace.
i found this necklace since last few week but can't even see one in the shop which i go often.
but that day, i found it in a boutique which sell Japanese clothes..hehe.it is a tiara shape blink blink necklace.
and then, i had asked my dad to buy it as my birthday present since my birthday is coming..
and u know what!!!
my youngest sister also asked daddy to buy one for her as her birthday present..
EXECUSE ME????
your birthday is on OCT, do you think it is too early to get your present !!????
i think it is really a bad excuse !!
but i have to admit that my sister is smart!! :)

3rd blog

2007-03-06T13:10:00.000+08:00

hmm..i got 3 blog account and this is my 3rd one..haha.
let's see how long i can maintain this blog..
last one is around one yr...
hopefully this can be more than one yr :p

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~*ChOcoLate's WoRLd*~