09年的降临

再过十几个小时,2009年就降临了.
不得不承认自己在2008年里好像没什么大制作.
让我好好回忆一下08里所做过的一些事~~

2月: 到日本大石寺.还去佐渡岛.这是第二次感受到下雪的兴奋.
5,6,7月: 应该是在为纪念总会忙着筹备的工作吧~!
8月 : 搬家 . . . 终于有属于自己的房间.说真的,搬家好累啊~!太多的东西要移,太多的垃圾要丢,太多的灰尘要清扫,太多的钱要花~
12月: 夏日炎炎II – 由于整个旅程我们都用了好多钱在吃方面,所以决定把它换成 夏日圆圆. 哈哈!~

好啦~真的没什么大制作啦!
Anyway, 祝贺大家HAPPY NEW YEAR~~!!

爱,你明白吗?

他说”我想我和她应该要分手了.”
我问”huh?为什么” (虽然,我不认识他的女友)
“因为我们每天吵架,很累.感情淡了.”
“情侣吵架是一定会有的.”
“我们很常吵.就好像,我已经星期五,星期六,星期日,星期一都陪她了.只是昨天和朋友去喝茶,她就说我最需要你在身边时,你却没陪我.”
“……..”
“她很黏我,我没有自由.我已经常陪她了,她还是会说我没陪她.”
“我觉得你应该和她好好的谈.不要冲动.毕竟五年感情”
“谈过了.虽然一开始她会明白,但是,过了一段时间,她又会乱啦.所以今晚才会想去喝酒.”
“酒醒后,问题还是在,还是要解决.其实,如果你不再爱她了,不管别人怎么说你最后还是会和她分开.”
“是酱的吗?”
我只是微笑点点头.
“我只是担心一样事情.她曾经说过,如果我和她分手,她会把自己变成一个夜店妹.(常常去夜店,喝酒,和别人一夜情) 我不能想象她和别人one night stand.”
心想:”厉害,抛狠话!”
“但是,你也没有理由和她在一起只因为她抛下那句话.那么你们在一起还有爱吗?”
“就是咯……..”
“想清楚才做决定吧!晚上别喝太多.”
电话响的正是时候,结束了我和他的对话.
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“爱”就是让人又欢喜又痛恨.
每个人爱的方式都不一样.
她爱他所以她要无时无刻都可以在他身边.
他爱她,但是他需要自己的时间,自由.他的世界里,不可以只是给她.
他有陪她,但她还是觉得不够.
他陪她了,她却觉的不够,所以他开始烦.他不明白为什么她不能给他一些自由….
当两个人一直在不够和不明白的圈子里转着,事情就会越难解决.
没有人肯退一步.那圈子越转越大, 彼此的距离也越来越远,转久了,渐渐的也会感觉累.
如果当初有人肯让步,你觉得他们是否还会开开心心的在一起吗?
没有人知道吧~~~!

祝福天下有情人终成眷属~

突然间想起她

也许真的好久没有她的消息了.
不是不要联络,而是每次call 她还是msg她,她都很少回复.

最后一次见到她的时候,是在七月吧!
那时,因为她要忙着去自己的岗位,而我要忙着化妆所以只是抱一抱,慰问了几句就没再见面了.
有少许的遗憾.为什么没有在对的时间相遇,那或许我们还可以聊更多.

我和姐,她与她的妹是从小时候就已经在一起玩到大的好好姐妹.
我们一起分享秘密,一起互相鼓励,一起出去玩,一起参加宗教的所有活动…..
直到一些事情发生在她的身上,
那件事情后,她开始了另一种生活.
这种生活只有自己开心,而身边的家人每天都在担心她.
说多了,就说我们不了解她.不说又不忍心看她变成另一个人似.
可是往往很多事情都不是我们控制….
她慢慢离我们越来越远….开始听不到她的消息….开始有些陌生…对这些感觉都感到害怕,无助~~

Anyway,一切都已经不能挽回了…
我问自己:
如果有一天在人来人往的路上看见她,我还会大声的喊住她和她拥抱吗?
….
….
原来答案还是---我会.

EVERGREEN 19th ANNUAL DINNER

地点: PENANG EVERGREEN LAUREL HOTEL
日期: 25 OCT 2008
主题: PIRATES AND THE CARIBBEAN

一年一度的Annual Dinner 又到了．
好开心，好兴奋．因为多数的同事都有跟着主题来打扮．最令人难忘的打扮就是八爪鱼-DAVID JOHN与船长-JACK SPARROW.

我的海盗同事

BEST MALE DRESSER-DAVID JOHN

JACK SPARROW 是当晚的MC．是主办当局特地从KL 请到PENANG主持大局的MC.
说真的，他真的真的很像戏里的JACK SPARROW.他的动作，他的声音，他的表情都可以很容易的就让我们张开嘴巴的＂哇～～，这个家伙怎么可以那么像ＪＡＣＫ呢？＂

不只那样，当晚的节目也超精彩的．有性感的肚皮舞，令人笑翻天的乐团以及紧张的幸运抽奖．

她们被拖上台玩游戏

从来不怎么有运的我，竟然在当晚可以抽到一架amplifier．虽然不是什么大奖，但对我来说已是一个满意的意外惊喜．：）
其它大奖有NOKIA N75,Sony LCD TV, DIGITAL CAM,and USD200.

Anyway, 虽然节目很精彩很有趣但是食物很糟糕.
这次是以西餐为主．一开始：开胃菜，然后：汤，接下来就有不同的主菜，最后是甜品．
出菜方式不是一人一碟而是一大盘的菜，然后就拿自己要吃的份量．（就好像去吃喜酒）
可悲的是主菜没有一样好吃，所以很多人都吃不饱～

这次为了让大家可以培养深厚的感情，主办当局为我们办了两晚的dinner.第一晚是正式的，而第二晚是非正式的晚餐．

地点：QE II (near penang port)
日期：26 OCT 2008

QE II 是很不错的地方．它像ＰＵＢ也像ＣＡＦＥ．它，以白色为主，里面有着很摩登的Design.窗口都是落地窗．
因为是在码头旁边所以无论是坐在露天的或遮盖的都感到很凉快．（放心，没有鱼腥味）
我喜欢这里的气氛，听着音乐，吹着海风再加上身边坐着的都是公司里的好姐妹，聊聊天，哈哈大笑，拍拍照，很舒服．
今晚的晚餐跟作晚比起来简直是天与地．不是我夸张但是这都是很多其他同事的意见．
有羊肉啦，Satay 啦，抄果条啦，香脆的炸鸡啦，Ais Kacang 还有很多好好吃的小食.

好美的风景呀~~!!

很开心的结束了三天两夜的假期~~

生日快乐,小妹!

20号是小妹的生日.我们并没有为她大事庆祝,只是让她有个小小的惊喜.

那晚,daddy放工回家前就已经买了蛋糕.
回家时,刚刚好和我一起到家,所以我进屋帮忙把风,确定小妹没在楼下,然后daddy就快速的把蛋糕放进冰箱.
我们平时都不会打开Wet Kitchen 的冰箱,所以蛋糕放在那应该都不会让小妹发现吧!~
果然一切都很顺利…..

她并没有看见我吩咐佣人把蛋糕偷偷的放在车厢,她也没发现到我叫可欣偷偷的把蛋糕放进百家利的冰箱~~ (我的计划真是太犀利了吧!~~)哇哈哈!

虽然,最后一步的时候,她猜到我们会捧蛋糕出来,但这是不能避免的.因为把灯关上时,只要是生日星,一定知道是要吹蜡烛的时间到了吧!~~

祝你生日快乐~~

小妹与可爱活泼的小朋友

少了大姐与阿弟的全家照

昨晚和阿姐,她妈妈与小妹到THE GARDEN的泰国餐厅吃晚餐.

晚餐是阿姐请的.因为小妹生日那天,她不得空庆祝所以就决定请她吃饭.

餐厅名 : RAK THAI

地点　：THE GARDEN (LG)

这间餐厅的环境不错．食物也好吃，我特别喜欢它的ＴＯＭＹＡＭ　ＳＯＵＰ．好好喝呀～～～～！

TOM YAM SOUP~

MANGO RICE

还吃了鱼，Kang Kong with chili, Green Curry Chicken and eggs (with something inside).

四个人吃了四菜一汤，只是RM100多．．．（walao---便宜吧！）

吃饱了就开始拍无聊的照片

我,小妹&阿姐

本人觉的这张照片把我拍的妙~~

结婚~

每次参加婚礼都会有很多的感触.
心里会有一股结婚的冲动~
好想立刻对乐说:”不如我们明天去注册吧!”
哈哈~!
听见别人的男友如何向自己地女友求婚,心里都充满感动.
因为我觉得求婚是可以看见或听见自己爱的人向我许下的承诺,就算只是简单的一句:”我会永远的照顾你”.
就好象和以下的歌词Click到 ***
<<一个微妙的体贴 我知道今天会是情人节 不是第一次听你说永远 泪水还是涌成温泉>>
T-T
很感动吧!~~~~

曾经问过自己,什么时候会结婚呢?
三年前觉得是25 岁.
两年前觉得是26岁.
至今总觉得26岁结婚好像太早了吧!~ (女人总是善变的动物) :)

其实想几岁结婚也并不是自己能决定的.
听过太多的例子-拍拖了好几年,买了屋子,以为再过不久就可以披上婚纱,漂漂亮亮的嫁给自己心爱的人.
可是到头来却只是自己的梦,人家的心早已不知道飞向哪儿,屋子买了也可以不娶,结婚照拍了也可以当垃圾放在一旁.
怎么世上会有如此不知所谓的事呢?

**如果我有机会见到他, 我会狠狠的刮那男的几把掌! ~~然后, 再狠狠的往他的小弟踢一下 ~~ (够他好受啦)**

太过分了吧~!
说完就完,说不要就不要~
毕竟曾经爱了好几年,怎么会说不爱就不爱了呢???
感情事永远就是那么令人难以明白~~~

不是真的爱她,就不要向她求婚.
求婚了,就要负起这个责任,任何事情都是要顾虑到另一伴,而不是随随便便说分开就分开.
伤害了她,你或许也不好过.
但是,被你伤害的,往往都要用比你更多的时间来疗伤.~~

在这里给能真正成为夫妻的 - 真的要好好珍惜身边另一伴,
因为过去世深厚的缘分,才能让你们在今世成为夫妻.

OCTOBER 08

When I woke up this morning, feel so lazy~~
Don’t feel like going to work today
These few days, not much thing can do in the office. It is so silent when no phone ring, no incoming email and no interacting within me and the fellow colleagues.
I know, even I am not going, my colleagues still can cover my job. I want to continue my dream and the smell of my bed is seducing me zzzzzzzz
++++++++++++++++++ == ++++++++++++++++++ == +++++++++++++++++++++++

In the end, I brush my teeth, wash face, change proper clothes, pray and drive ahead to the office.
*hehe***(I am not tht kind of irresponsibility person)

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Internet connection in new house had fixed.
Finally I can check my hotmail, gmail, friendster, facebook, MSN, updating and reading blog every night.

sure my mum will start complaint me n my sis not accompany her to watch tv at night if we on9 every night.so must have a good plan to avoid her complaint~~~~~~~~~!!!!

“thanks” for the TM people who finally solve the internet problem~almost one month they had used to fix it~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~so "EFFECTIVE" right?

Successful of General Meeting~~

Hooray!!
maybe it is too late to shout HOORAY
but~~~
i still feel like shouting Hooray~~~
Congratulation to all Malaysia Nichiren Shoshu members
~~our KICK OFF 2009 GENERAL MEETING had held successfully on 20th JULY 2008~~
thanks for all the members who help us alot in front or behind the stage
thanks for all the members who attend this meeting, without u all, it can't be a wonderful day
thanks for opening dancer--u all smile like sunshine on that day~~
thanks for the turtle and finale dancers--u all gave me a big surprise~~GREAT~~!!
ahahaha
feel so touching when the meeting finished.
my tears just came out when everything end
i will miss the day we strike hard for our performance~~
oh ya!~~we took alot pic on that day
should upload it when i go back home :)

She is sad

I am very free in Office today~~~!
so I decide to read through the blog which belong to my frens or family.
and i found out - she.
She is someone close to me,when i read her BLOG only i realise she is not very Happy on this 2 weeks

(hey is 2 weeks not 2 days)

I am quite Sad when i read it.
I know what had happened on her cos she told me before.
I tried to explain to her at tht time but she got a wrong msg
she thought i am trying to scold her like how the others treat her...
feel speechless ~~~
anyway still hope she can be happy ~~~~

human is like this :**##
everything will become negative when we are in the bad mood
even though the people is trying to help you but you thought they are trying to put shit on you
good thing telling in the right time is good thing
but when telling in the wrong time den it will become bad thing

so what we can say next time?
or ar we suppose to wait the people good mood only tell her???
it is to late to tell them untill they feel good?

GOOD STORY

oh ya~~i got below story from my colleague.Maybe many people read before,but this story really touch me.It is not easy to be a women~~if me,i don't think i can forgive my husband who betray on me.haha~~
below is the story >>>
(is a long story,so prepare a cup of tea and some cookies before u start reading) :)

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled.

But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.

I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce.. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.


So, Before Married, its only a lovely Dovey Love Birds.. But when after married, couple will share few love with their gift of love from what they are made.. its all about unselfishness and share thy BIG LOVE.. For me, there's nothing changes, its all about effort of being together and still can be very romantic when once knew of romance..

08 year's BirTHDAy

A small surprise on this years~~
My friend who stay in Aus msg & called me to wish me..thanks YY & Monkey

A little bit disappointment on this year~~
My friends who quite close to me last time, forget my birthday. I know it is nothing for some people, but for me, their wishes can make me happy on the day. OK~~fine!!maybe i should not request too much,since the one who very close to me is with me on tht day~~ :)

Anyway,i still had a wonderful Bday Celebration with my family & LE.... The present who gave by LE is abit~~~erm~~~surprise?cos is a perfume!!i never think he will give me perfume,haha!!

I like the color of the box-->BLUE
and the Bottle







I also got nail color present form my Sister..AHWEN

Let's check the color...
got BLUE also
I don think it look pretty on my nail.
I like Blue color but doesn't mean Blue nail color is suitable for me.
hmm~~~
I tried to apply on my nail, but it really look abit weired
The main point is-->i m not good to apply it wahaha


Anyway~~thanks my dear AHWEN & LE
oh ya~~my parents bought high heel for me & my fren SW also bought me a piece of cake & apple strudel.

Many Thanks to them~~~~